oh no!!!

ohhhhhhhhhhh im so bad. I succumbed to the temptings of the devil, I have eating high-carby food and I am not proud of myself. SO i just slipped by having a couple of dim sims, and then in my thoughts of guilt...I was like " well i better make the most of it, and eat whatever" DOH im so stupid. I KNOW ITS BECAUSE i dont have my chromium tablets, i need them bad. I NEED them seriously its not funny, oh no i think i have found a semi-good addiction for me...however...i cant get them till wednesday cos thats when dave gets paid next.....damn damn damn

Lemon Detox

Ok so I have heard of this lemonade diet, lemon detox or whatever before. So I went to my friend's last night for tea, she found out that I was avoiding carbs and asked me what diet i was on. I replied my healthy eating plan involves low carbs, lots of vegies and meal replacement shakes. She said that shes tried that before and lost a lot of weight. But since she cant get her mind set into doing it again, she is trying this lemon detox diet. She says that her energy levels are so much higher and also that she has already lost 3kgs (in 6 days), she plans on doing this lemon detox for 10 days. wow she is so strong, i dont think I could go without food for so long!!! But she says its mind over matter, its her body that craves it, not her mind....which makes sense to me. I want to give it a go sometime, but I just dont think Im that mentally prepared....

What I really want.

Urghh I hate not being able to go into any store I want and being confident that I will find something that I like and that will look awesome on me.

My DREAM is to be able to shop at JustJeans or Jeans West and to come out with a hot pair of jeans or dress that fit and look good :(

Thats what I keep reminding myself with (shopping at JJ), or have been lately when my mind starts to stray...with thoughts such as "is it worth it?", "why am I bothering" <----the devil is tempting me I swear!!

BTW -- i love these jeans from JustJeans (straight smoke stain)

Surprisingly Regular. :P

A couple of years ago I remember being on a low-carb eating plan and found that I was always constipated. So to my surprise being on this eating plan for about 2 and half weeks I have noticed that I have had not much problem going to the toilet at all. I havent even being adding any fiber to my meals, I have tried to avoid it because i am not fond of the gooey texture----ewww.

Anyways I thought that was an interesting note for me to put down...haha

oh I'm out of chromium tablets, and now I am freaking out...i think that is what has been saving me lately with craving sweet stuff. and i think i know why I ate so much the other day when I was stressing out, because I didnt get my daily dose of chronium.

So now that I have identfied the problem, I am temporally taking the blackmores weightloss accelerate tablets till i get some more chromium tablets. The blackmores WA tablets are suppose to reduce hunger and I have found before that they help a bit.

Stress!!

Oh my goodness, I cant help it--but shove food in face when Im stressing out eeeeek!!
On Tuesday I was working on a couple of assignments that were due the next day, and i didnt even realise for awhile that i kept making trips to the kitchen for some sort of snack. First it started off with steamed vegies with parm cheese and cracked pepper, then the next thing it was cottage cheese by the spoonful!! gross.

What was I thinking?? I most likely wasnt!! oh well at least it was still low carb...but I am not happy with myself. I know that when i am stressed I just have to munch for some reason....will have to get some celery or something next time I anticipate another stressful study sesh.

Dinner

Ok so last night I attempted to make Thai Mince Beef (larb), my favourite that Mum always use to make for me. Usually we have it with sticky rice, but to make it "healthy eating plan" friendly I substituted rice for cauli rice and it was still sooo good!! Yummo

It unfortunately didnt turn out as nice as this pic, I put the red onions in too soon. I should of waited till I turned off the heat before adding it - because it lost most of its gorgeous colour and turned pale colour, nearly white!!!

Anywho I am pleased that I can still enjoy Thai food, while on this eating plan :) hehe

Forgot to set goals..!!

JEANS!!

if I could look as hawt or nearly as hawt as Rachel Bilson does in jeans...i would be STOKED>>>SO HAPPPY!


I don't know why i am so obsessed with jeans, I hope that when i do reach goal that I will be satisfied when i can actually wear them...
I think its just because I find it difficult at the moment finding jeans that look good that i have it set in my mind that when I am slimmer I will look good?? I dont know....hahaha

Well it does kind of suck always having to wear trackies when I go out, especially since we are getting into winter...it would so nice to slip into a sexy pair of jeans and look good...

Ok so first goal is to have loss 8kg by the end of June, I will be seeing mum First of July...eek. Wanna be slimmer.

I dont have any other goals then, apart from end goal which is to be 55kg, but I dont know what a suitable time frame for that would be..Maybe sometime in August..?

I need the control...

May 5th 2009 75kg

The day I started my new eating plan. Which I now refer to as "healthy eating plan" I dont say diet anymore because I am over people telling me that I dont need to diet or that diets are so bad for you.

I have starting using meal replacement shakes, bars, soups. I am mixing it up between Tony Ferguson Shakes and Celebrity Slim To go Shakes and meal replacement bars.

I know I started my new healthy eating plan at 75kg because my SIL and I went to the gym and had a consultation with a personal trainer. She took our measurements and weight, and I was so sure that I was still at 70kg, however she whispered..."it says 75" :(

Anyways, last Friday I went to the Shopping center to weigh myself on one of those scales that measure your height and weight, and it came up with 71.6kg. So in 10 days I lost 3.4kg, I can't complain I guess.

I have been pretty good so far on this program. Except for yesterday when Lucus and Susana came over, bringing an irresistable banana/toffee pie. I anticipated dinner plans for yesterday so I just had one shake and one apple, skipped lunch shake and just had dinner (fish & chips) and banana/toffe pie :D.

So back on track now. I try to visit the TF forum daily, as it keeps me motivated. I love reading ppl's weight losses its fun and keeps me in the mind set of keeping strong.

Dave does not get back till midnight tonight. So i wont worry too much about fixing him dinner. I am thinking about trying one of the TF's premaid meals...we'll see how i feel